It Came From Outer Space…

I’ve been watching a lot of the show ‘Criminal Minds’ lately. I saw a few episodes of the second season and it intrigued me the way that it works. The more I watch I can see the formulaic parts of the show, but the dynamic between the main members of the BAU and their intelligence and dedication impresses me to see more, especially because they’re shown as fallible, people have been shot, there have been screw-ups and some have resigned, and the core tries to pick up and carry on, rather than just moving on they’re shown struggling and coming to terms with every case, and how deeply it not only affects them but their families given they’re having to deal every day with the dregs of humanity and people doing extremely depraved things, especially as they try primarily to catch serial killers.

It also shows a lot of very accurate procedures, when children go missing they put up amber alerts and have certain protocols to go through, they’ve used school alert systems and police, and also I like the fact that despite the fact that they’re a branch of the FBI unlike many cop shows where there’s such rivalry and horrendous portrayals of the local law enforcement if the show is from the FBI’s perspective and vice versa, the people from the BAU always teach the local LEOs with respect, and in one recent episode one of the BAU members actually called her superior to task for being disrespectful to a LEO.

I may be a bit biased on that one being married to law enforcement, but it’s nice to see them being accurate. I do also have a soft spot for Garcia, the technical analyst. She’s a Geek Goddess the way I would love to be.

I’ve been a bit out of it for the past few weeks because I’ve been sick. At first I thought it was the fibromyalgia acting up but after things got so bad that I could hardly move for the pain my husband took me to the doctor.
It was a strange sitting in the doctor’s office. There were people in equestrian apparel next to pensioners, and children.

In the end it was established that I have a virus which is aggravating the fibromyalgia because a lot of the symptoms of the virus mimic fibro, but with the added bonus of dizziness and nausea. I’m on a course of antibiotics, and am hoping that the plague will be knocked out of me soon so that I can feel better and be more up to catching up on work and things.

…they make it hard to do writing and also do work. My room mate has graciously let me borrow her computer for the evening to try and get urgent things done, but after that I’m going to be depending on whether or not it’s the video card and therefore an easier fix, or the mother board, which means their by the grace of the Gods go I as far as getting it sorted out.

The mother board is expensive and as old as the computer is then it’s not really worth getting it replaced. I’d be better off getting a new computer. That’s prohibitively expensive though, unless the repair place will let me pay in installments for a Frankenstein computer made from parts of the old one which still work and other parts that they have. Maybe I can get a second job selling or testing hgh releasers to earn a bit of extra cash in the mean time.

I’m so ticked off right now. The computer was fine last night. There’s not really be any warning that anything was going wrong. It just wouldn’t work this morning. Normally I back the computer up every few weeks but with us going to the wedding a couple of weeks ago and me playing catch up I let that slide. So, silly of me.

If this place is quieter than usual for a while though that’s why. Wish me luck.

There’s been a break in getting phone calls for “Look Beyond Mirrors” where we’re now getting phone calls for the people who used to have our phone number, again.

This is at the point of ridiculousness because we’ve been in this house going on two years now and we’re getting phone calls for them. It’s not nice calls either. I’d almost rather it was someone wanting to offer them the Blue Advantage health plan, or mortgage insurance, but instead it’s “Do you know who these people are?” “Are you sure?” “You have NO contact information for them, really?” and things like that.

I’m not sure if there’s something I can file formally. I need to find out because I’m sick of it.

I’ve had several people over the years, including my therapist (yes, I have a therapist) suggest to me that I should write the story of my life. One of the first I recall doing this was my now-ex step-father. Boy, would he not like the way I would write about him! Which makes it extremely tempting to do so, but at the same time it’s extremely daunting.

I remember when I was still in college and my parents went on a trip in their rv. My Mum chronicled the entire journey and wrote it up after they got home. However, writing about things which have gone on with me are nowhere near as easy. I have actually started to write things several times, but I usually grind to a halt even more quickly than any of my fictional pieces. I feel as though I’m going on too much about things or being too whiny. I think part of my problem is not mapping things out. I have this misguided notion that because I lived my life I don’t have to map it out like I would one of my other stories.

I realize this is a silly notion and I should rectify it, but at the same time I also realize that I’m not quite ready yet to write this sort of thing. There are certain things which happened to me that I am not in the right frame of mind to expose even myself too.

I’m still not quite sure what I’m going to do with this place. I had some ideas, mostly that I was going to shut it down, but now due to a mix-up I have the blog for a whole other year–and I don’t want to just leave it static.

At the same time I don’t want to resort to something that turns this into just some weight loss pill reviews or some thing like that.

I’m wondering about converting the entire domain into a show case for the writing stuff which I want to try and make a stronger focus upon and make use of my time since I’m out of a job again. We’ll have to see what I can make layout wise to fit the domain name, and also my writer’s mentality. I’m sure the graphics wouldn’t be too much of a problem really, more exactly how I would set up the content so that it showcases things properly without leaving me wide open to plagiarists.

If people have been on my personal blog recently they’ve probably read that our household has been changing their dietary habits. This has meant a complete re-shape of the entire kitchen, and so far as sparked around 12lbs of weight loss in both myself and Kore.

We’ve elected to go this route rather than weight loss pills because it’s more practical. However my physician has spoken of bringing pills into the equation if I get to a plateau for a while just to help jump my metabolism a bit more. I’m slightly apprehensive, but I trust this new doctor that I have so far he’s been very on the ball despite me only being with him a short amount of time, and I love the fact that he explains everything to me even down to every single line of the blood work he ran. So if he feels that it is going to be beneficial for me to take pills for this I’m more inclined to do so, especially as he researches everything and has a tendency to go for natural herbal supplement routes rather than chemical ones.

I’ve been doing pretty well on my diet and exercise.
One thing that’s helped is us trying to stretch our food budget between extra people, an easy way for me to do that is to eat less so there’s more for everyone else, and helping move things around while the renovations are going on and painting and plastering and doing a lot of physical activity is also a bit hepl. I just hope it sticks once the room conversion is finished, because I’m not a big fan of excessive use of drugs. I know others would be happy to take Leptitrex or some other drug, but if I was going to take something as a supplement I’d be more likely to take Hoodia because that’s a natural one. It’s just one of those things.

…and an actuality really. I find as I clean up around the house I feel a lot cleaner in my mind as well, as though I’m cleaning clutter in both places, airing out my thoughts and just relaxing. I think this is partially because the state of the house has been bugging me for a while, but I haven’t had the energy to deal with it because I’ve had such a case of the “blahs” for a while.

So, as I rearrange the laundry room and throw out a bunch of junk that we don’t need any more it’s like I’m also taking Sebo vacuums to my mind as well, and upping my energy and generally feeling better.

There’s still a bit to go in the house and I’m probably not going to be able to finish that until later on today or even tomorrow, with my health condition I have to be careful not to over-extend myself otherwise I’ll be unable to do anything for several days and feeling “blah” again and that won’t do anyone any good least of all me.

It’s good to clear the cobwebs out of your mind every once in a while though, because it helps to re-energize you and give you a fresh perspective, and help with a lot of things, including giving you a more positive point of view. It’s also good to clean your energy, just being around people and out and about can gunk up your energy system, you may get unwanted attachments from other people, negative energy and emotions and it can bring you down, so cleaning out your chakras and grounding yourself and cleansing yourself inside and out is a great thing to do. Once I get things the way I want around here I’m going to do another cleansing of our house. I haven’t done one since we’ve moved in and there’s been a lot of negativity being brought into our house by other people that we know and even myself and my husband through our whining and complaining about things going on with other people that we know. So, it’ll be good to get all that out, ideally I’d like to do cleansings once a month on the full moon, but I’ve really not been paying proper attention to these things.

Do you?
I changed my hair!

Well…actually a few weeks ago I did change my hair, but tonight I changed the layout of the site. I’m still tweaking some of the side bars and things a little bit, and I’m going to try and make things look a bit more professional over here.

We’ll see how well that goes.