I’m locked out of quite a bit of work, and all the email I received in the past two months as well as the article for the Tarot World Magazine and a couple of stories as well. It’s very frustrating. I’ve put a new screen, and a new keyboard in already in the past two months, and replaced a battery. Now I’m going to have to replace the battery again, no doubt, because the power cord will probably have killed it, and then I might have to replace the screen again…but it’s very frustrating, I’m wondering what’s going to go next.

It might be better for me to buy another laptop for cheap, and refurbish it and start over from scratch at this point. If I keep having to replace parts on this one I may as well.

I do have the desktop PC that I can use in a pinch, as I am now, but I like the laptop because I can take it outside and do work on the patio while the munchkin builds sandcastles and I can take it in the bedroom if I’m feeling ill and things like that.

I’m never going to cut chocolate completely out of my diet, so I figure I’m just doomed to have zits. I’m not one to wear make-up it’s too much hassle, so you see me you’re going to see some spots. I pick at them. I know I’m not supposed to. I try not to but some times I just have to. They sit there on my face taunting me. If you just pop me I’ll be gone! Some times it works some times it doesn’t, as with anything that’s a force of nature some times you’re just doomed. I can’t stop the need for using the bathroom, and I can’t stop zits.

I’ve been hearing a lot about this new natural acne treatment and it’s tempting, but I feel like with anything else my zits may well just be too stubborn like me to respond to it. We got our tax return in though so maybe I’ll give it a go.

I do try to walk around our neighborhood but as the Florida weather creeps towards unpleasantly hot it’s hard to be able to do that. So, I’ll do mini stair climber things on our stair case, and step aerobics on the bottom step. I’ll chase the munchkin around the yard.

Just cutting out soda is a big help with losing weight because of all the sugar and junk that’s in there. When I really started studying labels on things I was so surprised as to everything that I’ve been putting in my body. The caffeine reduction has been taking it’s toll on my mood, but I’ve found that lying in the yard for a few minutes really helps me to center and get back in the proper frame of mind to continue the day.

I’m doing a lot of repairing of parts rather than replacing of wholes, and in our house we’re also running certain things out and replacing them with natural alternatives. I was gratified to find out that my host has been working on lowering their carbon footprint for many years and pride themselves on being eco-friendly. We have energy saving bulbs throughout our house, and I use a steam mop to clean the floors so that I don’t have to use chemicals on the floor, which is good for both the environment and my son and cat.

I’ll talk more about being eco-friendly in a bit, right now I have to do some more things away from the keyboard for a little while.

Some times I feel as though I have two different children. One is nice and sweet and loving, will come up and give me hugs and kisses, snuggle in my lap or play nicely at my feet while I try to catch up on some work, and the other suddenly appears and goes on a destructive spree around the house, glaring at me, screaming “I want! I want!” throws things everywhere and tries to kill the cat. It’s very perplexing, and I’m told, completely normal.

These are the times I wish that being pagan meant I could just wiggle my nose like Samantha in “Bewitched” and fix things, or at the very least put the fence up in our back yard so that he had a safe place to play outside without me hovering over him like a hawk and I could catch up on a few things, or at least start to put the house back together.

Aside from breaking the keyboard on my laptop, he’s broken the sides off a stone prayer pyramid that I have, and tried to go bowling with my crystal ball. Thankfully my tarot cards are kept in a locked chest when I’m not using them for a reading so they’re safe from his exploits, but I’m beginning to think that I’m going to have to get a ladder and move all the shelves in the house up to the seven foot mark on the wall so that things are safe.

I find it hard myself to resolve doing certain things, any time that I take twenty minutes just to watch a TV show or play a small portion of a video game I feel hideously guilty but I’m learning that it’s okay to take time for myself that accomplishing a few things on my task list is worth something even if I haven’t completed it all because my sanity and well being are more important overall.

Life is not a race it’s a collection of learning experiences, and happiness is more important than being a huge ball of stressed out goop shuddering in the corner.

I’ve said before that I’m looking into reiki, but I also find that just taking a few moments each day to relax, ground and cleanse can help to keep things chilled out.

I’m trying to take a more relaxed outlook to things to not sweat the small things and to just let as much as possible roll off my back. I’ve had the tendency to freak out over everything when certain things aren’t things I can do anything about and that’s not helped by certain people we have in our social circles who bring a lot of negativity into our house, home or life.

Here’s hoping that I can help myself and perhaps spread some of this wisdom throughout our circle so that the negativity in our area dissipates.

My husband and I have been taking day trips to places rather than doing stays anywhere because it’s easier on our budget and his schedule. We’ve taken our son to the zoo and to play parks, things like that, so he can learn about different things and have different experiences without it breaking the budget too much.

We’re setting money aside for various things, one thing that we want to do is take him on a trip to England so that he can learn more about his history and my family and where I grew up. I’d like my husband to see that too.

For now we just have to be content with exploring our close environment but there are lots of fascinating things to be shown close to home as well.

I should be around again for the next few days. The first part of next week is going to be busy for me again. I have appointments and I have my citizenship interview, but after that things should settle down. I hope. We could use some peace and quiet around here.

I’ve also got all my licensing and everything sorted out again for the new address so all I have left to do is update my address with the Florida Business Bureau as they still have us listed from the previous move. I couldn’t do anything earlier because the internet has been up and down like a yo-yo today for some reason. Probably just that I have a lot of things I’ve been wanting to catch up on.

I have the intent to do some sample readings and post them with pictures and things, and I’m hoping to sort out how to record myself doing readings as a demonstration without feeling like a moron…but that’s going to be hard

Onwards and upwards though.