Mar 15 2010
Emotional Writing
I found myself very drained by some of the things that I’ve been writing about in ‘Too Deep’. There are a great many emotional events in the story, which bring about feelings of fear, not being safe, grief, sadness and turmoil.
I’ve found myself experiencing nightmares, watching the events of the story unfold, and I’ve been tired, stressed and overall drained and no fun to be around.
It got so bad recently that my husband suggested that I give up writing all together, which brought about more upset because writing is one of the few things that I’ve wanted to do in my life ever, and the only one that I haven’t given up on. My dreams of being an astronaut went goodbye because of my health. My desire to be a vet wavered after I worked at a Humane Society and realized I just wouldn’t be able to do it. My dream of owning a New Age store, is still on the burner, but the fire is going out the more our finances go into hock.
Writing is my passion. When the depression and ill health got so bad that I had no inspiration and couldn’t write I felt crippled and diminished. The joy I’ve felt as I’ve been able to put pen to paper and hand to keyboard once more is insurmountable. I do not wish to give it up. I feel that will be worse than anything I could do for myself.
However, the stress, turmoil and grief, those are things which I know have to stop. I have to find a way to be able to convey my stories without living or re-living them so completely that I become overwhelmed. There has to be some way that I can write and enable my readers to experience these things without destroying myself; because that is not a good thing for anyone particularly me.
